Why run for the Boston Public Library Fund?

Obviously if you are going to run for a charity it needs to be important to you and connected to your why. So, why the Boston Public Library Fund? Here’s what I said on my application for the team:

Application: Why do you want to run for Team PBL?

Answer: To say that I’ve spent my life hopping from library to library is an understatement. I have deep memories that date back to my elementary school days of volunteering in the school library. I can clearly picture the librarian, Mrs. Breakstone- the card catalog system the comfort of being surrounded by books. I have similar memories in Junior High and Senior HS. One constant regardless of the school was that I was volunteering in the library. I imagine it’s my love of books that had me in the library as a student. The love of books has continued and been passed down to my children, ages 10 and 12. As I type this it seems really evident that I should most definitely have become a librarian. But I was fixated on becoming a lawyer, which I did and also involved a lot of time in a library! But after having children, I was drawn to education and back to the library. During the onset of Covid I became a substitute teacher to help bridge the gap during in person learning. Any guesses about where I was stationed…correct the library. 

Running a race for charity has to be highly personal. You have to believe deeply in the cause and the mission to ask other people for money. When things get tough you have to draw on that sense of purpose of why you are doing something. While I do not live in Boston, I know the importance of the library to the community and the broad depth of the programming that you offer. I serve on a local library board, so I feel a connection to the importance of public libraries and what they contribute to the community. 

Whenever I finish a race- my boys ask “which marathon are WE running next?” I always chuckle about the we part because I’m the one doing all the running. The answer has always been the same…BOSTON. They even got me the Run Boston hat as a reminder. The reality is that while they aren’t doing the running- they have always been part of the process. From chatting to me on the treadmill during my early morning training runs, to brainstorming ways to raise dollars for charity, to being out on the course with my husband to support me. As much as books are an integral part of our every day I can’t imagine how excited they would be to hear that we are going to fundraise for the BPL.(Read about their response below). For them and me it would be a dream come true to combine my passion of running and reading while accomplishing the unicorn marathon.

Application: Please tell us something interesting about yourself.

Answer: I’m a mom to two boys, who pivoted her entire professional life when they were born. While I don’t regret getting a law degree (truly got to have my dream job!), as it provides me a foundation for much of my work as it relates to critical thinking and putting systems into place for our independent day school- I’ve thought more than once about going back to school to obtain my library science degree. I feel blessed to be able to work at the same place my children go to school. 

In the mean time I share my love of reading and book in general in other ways- like blogging about them or sharing on social media. My blog website is literally- runreadrepeat.com. I started a book club at work. We have been meeting for nearly two years. Each month the group comes up with a genre and I put together 5-6 books for everyone to consider. Then we vote- so we all have ownership over the book. Some have been winners- others less so but it has really helped build a sense of community among a group of us who know that we all enjoy reading. 

I also enjoy meeting authors and attending author events, especially those presented as public library fundraisers. My best friend from college and I plan our annual get together around traveling to an author event. I’m so excited because this coming week I’m taking my ten year old to a local event featuring Jeff Kinney. He’s literally been counting down the days until he gets to see meet his first author in real life.

So how did the boys respond to the news? You know how there’s just something about kids- where their emotions and responses are so genuine? There was so much PURE JOY when I shared the news. The wheels were already turning for them about how much fun it would be to incorporate our love of reading/books and running into this adventure.

I think it’s clear me + books + running = Boston Public Library Fund 2026 Boston Marathon team!! Let’s go!

Grieving the loss of racing

I know what you are thinking- this is a pandemic. People are getting sick. People are dying- how can you talk about grieving the loss of racing? Here’s the deal- I’m not undermining the unbelievable seriousness of the COVID 19 pandemic or the people who have gotten ill and especially not those who have lost their lives. I’m also not so short sighted to see that there are folks who have had their lives completely turned upside down, life cycle events that have been postponed and cancelled. So yes, I get it. But here’s what else I get I’m allowed to grieve too. Yes, grieve- that’s the feeling that we’ve been having about the normal parts of life that have been lost, basically ripped away from us. For example, pre-school graduation, end of the school year traditions, the fact that my kids only see their friends through a computer screen. Yes, I know it’s not High School graduation- it’s not going off to college. But it’s sad and it’s upsetting to watch as a parent.

So my point is we are entitled to grieve the loss of racing. Ask any runner who trains for a race- it’s the thrill of all the runners lining up to run. It’s hearing “on your mark, get set, go.” It’s the people along the course of the run cheering you on. It’s pushing yourself to run the very best race that you can. And it’s that moment when you cross the finish line. Win, lose or draw knowing you gave it your all! Finally, for me it’s knowing that my husband and boys are waiting for me. Proud of my no matter what time I come across the finish line.

There have always been virtual running opportunities. Once racing was cancelled for the indefinite future even more virtual opportunities sprang up every where. You know what, for the first several months they fulfilled a real need. Nearly every time I went out to run it was a virtual race. Whether it was the Un-canceled Project, Rock n Roll Virtual Series or a variety of others, I was pushing myself harder and my times continued to improve. But then the “real” race cancellations start to pile up. First it was a 4 miler with my sister, our first race together. Then it was a 10K that was supposed to be a fun course. Up next came a half marathon that also included a race for my boys the day before. 2020 was supposed to be this amazing racing year. I had carefully selected a variety of races and locations. I was training hard and it was all leading up to running the NYC Marathon, November 1, 2020.

Today is May 28, 2020. Today the Boston Marathon, that was previously postponed to September was cancelled. While this isn’t the first marathon to be cancelled. It’s the first major marathon in the United States. Am I surprised? No. I knew it was coming. Just like I know that shortly hereafter the marathons in London, Chicago and NYC will follow. But you know what, knowing something is going to happen and having it be final are different. Right now, the NYC Marathon is still on as scheduled, but in my heart I know that I will not be running in NYC on November 1st. I know that I won’t be taking part in the 50th running of the NYC Marathon, in honor of my Dad who suffers from Alzheimer’s. I also know what you are thinking. Racing isn’t cancelled forever. If it’s so important you’ll do it another year. But you know what- you’re right. I will run the NYC Marathon. It will happen. But there was just something special about this year. I turn forty in January. It was this perfect combination of 2020, 50th Anniversary and a milestone birthday.

I also know that there’s a flip side to look at this situation. I know it could be a blessing in disguise. That I could be in even better shape next year. Trust me, I’m the kind of person that believe that everything happens for a reason. But right now I’m not past the grieving stage. Right now, I’m sad for what I know is coming. Yet, I’m still in denial until it becomes official. I’m full of questions. Will I be able to defer to next year? What happens to the donations that people so generously made on my behalf? What if I’m not able to run next year? Do I start my training cycle? Do I run 26.2 on November 1st regardless? Can I really run a full marathon without the adrenaline, the fan support, the full experience?

The answer to many of these questions are beyond my control. The truth is time will tell. I also know that as long as we all stay healthy this is just a blip. But you know what else, I’m going to give myself the grace I need to be sad before I move on. So for now, I run and I wait.